Today, my thoughts are about “munn vasanai” (In English: the smell of the ground)
What does the word mean to you?
Is it a place? A house…..4 walls….nice roof? A mountain perhaps? A country? A town? A sweetheart’s arms?
Is it a thing? Is it a feeling?
What is it?
What does home mean to you?
It means so many things to me. I have moved so much…that the material world meaning of house doesn’t mean anything to me anymore.
I still remember Thatha’s house. His fields. The tamarind tree in the back. The swing on the tamarind tree.
I still remember Appa and Amma’s house. My favorite spot there to hangout….where I spent 1000 hours of reading, studying, chatting with Amma or Appa. My favorite spot there to eat.
I still remember my dorm rooms. Filled with cheer and fun. Filled with so much studying.
I still remember the first apartment that Kumar and I were together in as a couple.
I still remember the first house that we moved into. All the lil things. All the plants we planted. The house that the boys were born in.
I still remember all my friend’s places where I felt like I home.
I still remember all that. Yet, I don’t.
Those “homes” have passed me by.
There is a term called “munn vasanai” in Tamil. It literally means, the “smell of the ground”. Figuratively, it means a place that you remember and cherish. As the first rain drops fall, the ground gives out a fragrance. That is “munn vasanai”.
Today, as it rains, here is Austin, I can smell the same “munn vasanai” of Thatha’s fields. I can smell the backyard in Appa and Amma’s house.
I think, home is where you are.
The rest of the mumbo jumbo about home is just biochemicals in your brain.
I am home. I am happy wherever I am.
I hope you are home and happy wherever you are too.