As I grow up, I begin to marvel at lil things.
Because, I realize the lil things in life are actually the big things in life.
4 people getting out in the morning…coming back home after a long day…having chai together….seems simple enough.
Does it not?
Probabilistically and realistically, the occurence of that happening is so rare.
Hence, I show gratitude for that simple vanilla moment of togetherness with chai and the boys.
And, I try not go get too attached to that moment.
Because, I know by now, this moment will pass me by too.
I feel dead beat today…and, my March Madness is only getting started.
Between, work,kids, travel..and the zillion things (both work and kids stuff) to get done before I travel, during travel and after travel..truly, there is too much to get done.
Despite, everything the boys do to work in unison and move mountains….and despite, all my planning and working ahead…my body is dead beat.
But, only my body is dead beat.
My mind and heart feel like a lion….they always have.
I wonder why our body can’t keep pace with our mind and heart.
I wonder why our body, mind, heart feel differently at different times.
If only….if only, we can unify the experience of what we experience, think and feel.
I wonder how that state would be.
One has been down with the flu the last 7 days.
One has been arguing with me like I have never been argued with.
One has been goofing away and completely ignoring every statement I make.
There is nothing as madenning as living with 3 boys. They drive me completely nuts.
It is a complete mystery to me how I can still retain a semblance of (in)-sanity and can laugh through it all.
BTW, the boys will convince y’all that I am the one that drives them nuts. Don’t believe them.
That is all I have to say for today.