Appa would tell me that kids grow up on us. And, as they grow up on us they take on more responsibilities.
As I was in gutters changing diapers, cleaning potty, fixing seat belts, carrying the boys around, feeding them, doing they laundry, chasing them to get homework done….I couldn’t believe what Appa said. It all just seemed like a maze of kid raising and tending.
Finally, I have gotten to a phase where I am beginning to believe what Appa said.
Arya has learnt how to navigate the world as I am driving or even as we are walking through a new city.
For those of y’all in the ditches with kid tending…do know that the current phase too shall pass. The kids will grow up and show you the way and make your heart beam with pride.
Hang in there and enjoy the one way ride.
As I grow up, I begin to marvel at lil things.
Because, I realize the lil things in life are actually the big things in life.
4 people getting out in the morning…coming back home after a long day…having chai together….seems simple enough.
Does it not?
Probabilistically and realistically, the occurence of that happening is so rare.
Hence, I show gratitude for that simple vanilla moment of togetherness with chai and the boys.
And, I try not go get too attached to that moment.
Because, I know by now, this moment will pass me by too.
I feel dead beat today…and, my March Madness is only getting started.
Between, work,kids, travel..and the zillion things (both work and kids stuff) to get done before I travel, during travel and after travel..truly, there is too much to get done.
Despite, everything the boys do to work in unison and move mountains….and despite, all my planning and working ahead…my body is dead beat.
But, only my body is dead beat.
My mind and heart feel like a lion….they always have.
I wonder why our body can’t keep pace with our mind and heart.
I wonder why our body, mind, heart feel differently at different times.
If only….if only, we can unify the experience of what we experience, think and feel.
I wonder how that state would be.