On Semblance of (In)-Sanity

One has been down with the flu the last 7 days.
One has been arguing with me like I have never been argued with.
One has been goofing away and completely ignoring every statement I make.

There is nothing as madenning as living with 3 boys. They drive me completely nuts.

It is a complete mystery to me how I can still retain a semblance of (in)-sanity and can laugh through it all.

BTW, the boys will convince y’all that I am the one that drives them nuts. Don’t believe them.

That is all I have to say for today.

On Feeling Sadness and Finding Healing

The boys were out of the house for a couple of hours yesterday morning. I should have just napped and caught up on much needed rest. Instead,as always, foolishly, I tried to get through my never ending list of todos.

I filled the house with music. No upbeat peppy songs. Somehow, something lead me to play some sitar and flute music. As the music streamed through my laptop, I went about chores and todo list.

We all store up pain and sadness in our hearts…we lock them away carefully. And, it is quite amazing how the right music evokes all that sadness back. Today’s sitar and flute music, possibly touched the innermost sadness and pain in my heart.
I went through a range of emotions.

Have you noticed how the early morning is shrouded in darkness? Then the sunlight starts clearing up that darkness.
In the beginning it is just a streak of light and a lot of darkness.
Then that streak grows, just a little at a time, until the day dawns…and, it is as if the darkness never even existed in the first place.

That is what the sitar and flute music did to me today. They flew into my heart, just a little at a time, until the sadness was all lifted…..and, it is as if, the pain never even existed in the first place.

Have you experienced this feeling?

I realized that despite every pain that I have endured, I have to feel grateful for my life.

I am always in awe of the musicians that have the power to make music that reaches the innermost corners of our heart.

Here is to all the pain and sadness that you and I endure.
And, here is to all the healing that has happened and will happen.

Read this aloud to yourself…slowly and as if you really mean it.
“In our darkness, there is no darkness
With you Oh Lord, the deepest night is clear as the day.”

May peace prevail in the innermost corners of your heart and mine.

Om Shanti.

On Being Happy

For more than a decade we have been sending the boys to Tamil school on weekends.
As part of that, there is weekly homework and monthly tests.
Getting the boys to finish homework and preparing for tests is a chore. 
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Typically, it used to be one of the grand parent’s weekend work.

Since, we have been living the last several years without grandparents support, that extra work of helping boys with Tamil has fallen to Kumar or me.
Kumar thinks I do a lousy job of it and teach kids all the Tamil slang and bad words.
So, he has prohibited me from teaching kids Tamil.
Anyways Kumar has been down with the flu. So, helping Ari with this month’s Tamil test has been added to my long list of to-dos for this week.

I start doing the chore….just as all we do chores….dragging my feet. Then, on page 2, I hit upon a very special dictation word – Magizchi (happiness).

I stopped going over the dictation words, and showed Ari some cool videos of Thalaivar saying Magizchi with great style.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7p-lKY-vkg

 We put some Thalaivar songs and started dancing like crazy.

Adi (aka the reasonable and responsible one) yelled at me and reminded me to quit having fun with Ari because we hadn’t gone through all the material for the monthly material. He said “He is going to fail the test and Appa is going to yell at Ari and you. Save yourselves. Focus.”

So, Ari and I had to stop goofing off. We had to continue to do prep work for the monthly test.

After a long week of work, kids, commute, carpool, curve balls, traffic, meetings, deadlines and utter craziness…after all that….seeing that one single word on a dictation sheet…electrified and energized me.

It is very difficult to explain to somebody what that one single word uttered by Thalaivar means to a die hard fan like me.
Well, unless you are a fan yourself. Then, you will just get it.

Wherever you are….whatever you are doing…be happy.

#Magizchi

 

On Times with the Boys

There are times that I adore the boys so much because they take such good care of me.
Case in point: picture on the top left.
Everyday in the morning, before I wake up, tooth paste is neatly placed on my tooth brush by one of my favorite boys (can’t say who, just guess who) so that I don’t even have to do that work in my morning rush.

Then, there are times that I don’t like the boys  because they drive me nuts.
Case in point: picture in the top right
No comments. The picture says it all.

Overall, mostly, there are times that I roll with the boys because they make me laugh my head off.
Case in point: pictures in the bottom
No comments. The picture says it all.

Families keep us going. Don’t they?!

On Pain

“chinnach chinna thoalvigaL kaettaen
seekkiram aaRum kaayam kaettaen”

I asked for small failures.
I asked for wounds that heal fast.

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. – Khalil Gibran

Pain is not a bad thing.
Emotional pain.
Physical pain.
None of that is bad.

For life to be birthed, there is pain involved.
For muscle to be built, there is pain involved.
For us to work through loss, there is pain involved.

We all go through life with moments when our hearts swells.
We also go through moments that break our heart.
We pull through that because we finds ways to cope through that pain.

We all deal with sadness in our one way.
Some of us seek company.
Some of us seek solitude.

Some of us mask our pain.
Some of us wear it like a badge of honor.

Some of us shed tears.
Some of us smile through it all.

Whatever method we choose, we cope through sadness and pain.

Pain gets a bad wrap. But, it is beautiful.
Pain is part of life.

Pain is what gets us through the tough challenges in life and make us stronger……physically and emotionally.

Pain always makes us to do the Phoenix Rising from the Ashes act…over and over again.

So, here is to pain.
Embrace it. And, allow it to heal you.

Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself. – Walter Anderson

Take chances, make mistakes. That’s how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave. – Mary Tyler Moore

The secret of success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that, you’re in control of your life. If you don’t, life controls you. – Tony Robbins

There is no birth of consciousness without pain. – Carl Jung

Turn your wounds into wisdom. – Oprah Winfrey